gOrge to dEath..haHx!!

can'T sLip wElL yEz nYte..i dUno y..n stIlL wOke uP earlY..wElL bOo* sTilL riNg mE uP..yEz hE ranG mE..tOld mE hIs pIstoN rIng nid tO chaNge..wElL,hE wEn tO thE wOrkshOp tOdae..nVr heaRd frUm hIm siNcE..anIwae..tOdae..i diDn't wEn tO cHong paNg..wEn tO cOzwaE instEad..mUmy wanTed tO briNg mE tO "fEast" @ seOul gaRden..

iT is thE fiRst tyme i diNe dEr..in mA enTire lYfe!!yUp..ksIan kaN..wElL,i tYnk iT iS a tOtaL wasTe oF mOney..$46 fOr 2 ppL..daT caN laZ a wEek saK!!i enDed uP gOrgIn masElf sOo daT mUmy's mOney wOn't gO tO wasTe..bUt neiTher oF uS caN eaT daT mUch aniwaE..weLl,@ leAz akU daPat jeJak jUgak pT sEoUl garDen..haHax..mIna kaMpOng!!wElL,thNx mUmy fOr thE feaSt!!i haD sOo mUch fUn..i dUno wEn xaCtly waS e laZ tymE wE haD sOo mUch fUn tOgether n laUgh s mUch s tOdae..wE haF bCum veRy cLoz rEcenTly..cIrcUmstancEs haS maDe mE reaLise hOw prEcious shE is tO me..i Love yOu sOo mUch mUmy!!

ima mUmy

oH yEs!!2MorrOw iS laBour daE!!eVeryoNe wIlL b @ hUm..nO wOrk oR skUl sOo tO yOu ppL oUt dEr..HAPY LABOUR DAE!!

pRetTy tirEd..

hEy dEr freNs & fOes..i dUno waT iS wrOng wIf mE tOdae..mA bOdy jUz fiL wEak aL ovEr n i'M hafIn a sLighT heaDachE..i'Ve bIn sLipin & layiN dOwn oN e bEd thE whOle daE..mUmy waS aCcompaNyin mE sOo i waSn't bOred..wElL,i tYnk i nId tO taKe a waLk n haF a brEezeR..i fIlL sOo suFficaTed iN e hOuse..sOo maEb i wilL b aCcomPanyin mUmy tO chOng paNg tOmorRow..hMm..i'm boilin pOtatoes ryTe nOw..sOo daMn hUngry..makin mAseLf saNdwiCh..yUmmY yUm!!weLl,gUd nyte tO yOu aLl!!

y dU i eVen bOther blOggIn wEn dEr iS nOtynk tO writE??

hMm..borEd..heHee..guGgles!!

sTart oF thE weEk!!

haLo dEr ma felLow matEs!!yUp..iT is tHe sTart oF the wEek..haF bIn lOokin 4waRd tO it aL wEekend..waS eaGer tO waTch hIkmah..hahaX!!bUt sTilL i oNli gEt tO waTch a paRt oF iT cOz mA bEz gF drOpped bY!!wAa!!sOo haPy!!lOng tYme nvR c eaCh oTha..tHnx gUrl fOr drOpPin bY..apPreciate e thGht!!wAa..lOng tymE nVr gO clUb wiF hEr..

i mIz e oLd tyMes!!waEt k swEetie..wE wiLl haF fUn lYke e oLd tymEs..dUn wOry ma prEcioUs..i wiLl pUt u 1sT b4 aNytYnk..caN't waEt tO sEe ma prEciOus!!eEe..bEz nYe..yIpPeE..2mrw mUmy'S oFf daE..gOt cOmpanIon..oFf fOr 3 daEs sUmore..bEz kaN..@ lEast i haF sUmbOdy tO taLk tO..wElL (bOo) raNg mE uP..n lYke oLwis preTendin lYke nOtynkS haPpeN sOo i jUz pLayEd aLong..wElL,i nId hIm tO urUskaN sUmtYnk bOut ma pReciOus dEn wE cAn oFficiaLly b oFf..haKs..lOve dUn mEan nOtynk tO me aniMore..sOrY hOn!!

lOve mA pRecIous & gUrLfRens!!

sEe waT dId i teLl yOu..

sEe..iN jUz a maTter oF a fEw hOurs yOu prOve daT u r nOtynk bUt a DICKFACE!!tHnx 4 hUrtin mE oNce mOre..wElL,i'M glaD i gaF u daT cHance cOz nOw i nOe dat u fCukin dUn treaSure oUr reLationship..u r cOmpletEly a diFferent pErson dEn cOmpared tO nOw..wElL mUhamMad hAfidz a.B.h,yOu caN waLk oUt oF ma fCukin lifE fOr alL i caRe..i'M nOt stOppin yOu..yEs!!i'm dItchin yOu rYte nOw!!i dUn niD a gUy wHu tYnks oF hImseLf..sOo waT if i stIlL lOve yOu??!!tymE wiLl eventUally hEal aLl paEn..i'm nOt gOna b a wEakLin jUz bCoz oF tiZ oNe smaLl sEtback..n rEmembeR..yOu basTard mE first..soO jUz waLk stRaight & dUn tuRn baCk coZ i'M nOt dEr waEtin fOr yoU..evEn thOugh u waNna rUn & catCh uP wif mE..i wIll b 2 faR gOne..

mY bIgGest sTep iN lYfe wilL b uR biggeSt regRet in lYfe..

wAt iS uP wiF hIm??

jUz wEn i waNna gEt alOng wiF ma lYfe..u dEcided daT u nId mE??waT e hElL??n hOw loNg iS tiz gOna laZ tiZ tymE??hE plaE aL goOd nOw..oF cOz laR i'M haPy..bUt waT iF hE hUrt mE yEt agAin??caN hE pRomiz daT hE wILl nvR hUrt mE & tYnk oF me b4 hE dU anYtink??daT hE wiLl pUt mE fiRst b4 hiS frEns??tyNk oF ma prEcious b4 hIs bIke..caN hE dU iT??wE r lYke nOt prOgresSin iN oUr reLationshIp @ aL..of cOz,i waN tO saLvage oUr reLationsHip if dEr is a chanCe tO dU sO bUt is he prePared at aLl foR the saCrificIes daT hE haF to maKe??daT he sHud'nt owIs b tyNkin of hiS frEedoM aL e tYme..hMm..waT m i suPpoz tU du rYte noW??sHud i giF hIm anOtha cHance??

sHud i gIf hIm a cHance tO prOve tO mE daT hE stIll love & caRe

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wElL,wE mEt oN 7 fEb 2007 @ sSdc..wE gOt tO nOe eaCh oTha..hE lYke mE aNd eVentUalLy iT tUrn tO sUmtYnk dEepeR..lOve..hE wanTed mE tO lOve hIm..lYke hOw hE haF lOve mE..n i dId..i dId lOve hIm 4 eVery sMalL tYnks hE diD..i haF oLwis bElievE daT hE waS e onLi gUy daT caN nVr lEt mE dOwn..nVr lEt me sHed a teAR..nVr hUrt mE bUt tymE prOve mE wrOng..hE iS thE gUy whU haF hUrt mE e mOz n e gUy whU haf lEt mE dWn..i cUdn't aCcept iT yeT tiLl nOw..e hUrt,e paEn..hE wiLl nVr nOe..hE caN nVr taKe aWae..iT iS a scAr daT hE haF leFt mE daT wiLl staIn maLyfe 4eVa..tO hIm i gaF ma aLl n hE rUin evErytYnk..eVery opInion daT i haF fOr hIm..eVerytHing nO lOnger meaN aNythIng tO mE..i haF makE a hUge dEcisIon..faCt ,trUth wiLl olwIs b..daT i lOve hIm & i wiLl olwiS lOve hIm bUt i caNnot fOrgiF hIm..i caNnot aCcept hIm..i caN liVe ma lYfe weLl evEn wiThOut hIm bUt faCt iS i dUn waN tO..i waN tO speNt e rEz oF ma Lyfe wIf hIm bUt hE haF makE daT iMposSibLe fOr me..

bOo u sHud haf thOught oF mE & pReciOus..nOw iS tOo late..

sUmtimeS i wOndeR..

sUrprised..

hEy dEr!!yUp..i'M blOggin eaRlier dEn usUal..sInce nOone iS usIn thE cOmp..wElL,yEz wEn i wAs jUz abOut tO sLip..bOo raNg mE uP..bUt hE waSn't aT hUm..hE waS @ thE coffeEshOp wiF hIs frEns & hE waS hiGh @ daT tYme..hE mUz haF cOnsUme aLot oF aLcohOl oReady wEn he rang mE up..arnd..4.30aM..wElL,i caN teLl ..i haF biN wiF hiM faR tOo lOng sOo i nOe nO matTer hOw mUch hE deNy iT frUm mE..wElL,i waS riLy tOuch bY waT he saE..hE wantEd tO miT mE 2dae..bUt to ceRtaeN reaSons & circUmstancEs,i asKed hIm nOt tO..wElL..i'm nOt gOna saE waT hE saE heRe..tOo mUshy2 laRrr..hehEe..i'm tRyin haRd nOt tO gEt "oVer-haPpy" wif iT cOz i nOe..haPy thIngs dUn uSualLy laZ dat lOng..bUt stilL i lOve hIm lYke i oWis haF bIn n wIll B..

todaE..i wOke uP @ 2pM..waS damN tireD lOrr..lUcky mUmmy haF..oR eLse i haf to enteRtain maseLf..yEt agaIn..saD nOe..bTw i'M mizIn bOo alOt..iT sIm lYke ageS daT i haF noT miT uP wiF hiM..

sTiLl lOviN u lYke dEr iS nO oTher..

hUrrAy!!mUmmy oFf daE!!

hEy der feLlow maTes..i wOke uP lykE 1.30pM toDae sOo timE siM tO paZ faZ!!hEehee..bUt wEn nYte faLls,i'M sTilL e "lOnliEst"..nOt sLipy yEt..jUz tirEd..& sUm pPl jUz siM tO b bLinded nOwaDaes..wEl tO whU u R,pLz r..waKe uP orEady!!

@ laZ!!2mOrrow iS muMmy's oFf daE!!wOn't fiLl sOoo bOred nOw..gOt mUmmy tO accOmpany mE tOmorrOw..bEz nye..sOo lOokin 4waRd tO dat!!hEehee..bTw,i miZ my graNdma lOtz!!lOng tiMe nO sEe..lOve u graNny kU!!heHee!!i fIll wEird laTely..sIm tO lOve ma faMily mOre dEn uSuAl..hahX!!waT e hElL!!faMily wiLl alwaEs b e bEz cOmpaniOns evEr!!nO mattEr waT haPpens,dEr wiLl oLwiS b dEr 4 u..sOo 2dae is a shoutoUt tO ma faMily..lOve yOu pPl lYke bIts & piEces!!thnX 4 bEin dEr 4 mE!!mUaXZy mUaxy!!

SHOUTOUT FOR

mY faMiLy..dAdDy..mUmmy..mE..siSta..&..bRothA

bE sTong..

hEy pPl!!i'M nOt dUin sOo gUd..bOo diDn't eVen bOther tO kOl wEn hE reacH hUmiez tiZ mOrnin..i waEted lyKe thE whOle nYte 4 hIm!!aSshOle!!nO sEnse oF rEspect!!i'm sOo piz oFf!!dU sUch pPl acTuaLi eXist??beaTs me!!n i actUali haF tO ranG hIm uP tO cOnfrOnt hIm!!nO inItiaTive tO apOlogizE!!eErrGghHh!!wElL,waT i saE iS nOt gOna changEd anYtInk..i dUn evEn nOe y i bOther waEtin 4 hIm tO cHanGed..maEb bCoz i fIlL daT mA prEcioUs nIdS hiM..& daT i sTil lOve him sO..lYke dErr..wElL,lEt hIm b 4 nOw..lEt sEe hOw tYnks gO frUm hEre..iF tYnkS dUn changeD 4 e bEta,i tYnk i haf tO taKe mA fiRst bIg sTep..wElL bOo,yOu caN't pOsSibLy eXpect mE tO pIck uP aL thE piEces daT u lEave bEhind rYte..

weLl eNugh bOut hIm oreadY..i mIz ma gUrlfRends a whOle lOt!!aL of dEm mUz b bZ wiF thEir wOrkin lYfe..wElL gFs..i caN't waEt tilL i'M frEe agaIn tO miT uP wiF yOu aL..!!i haF sOo maNy catchin uP to dU..dUn 4gEt mE yA!!(oH ya..i miZ e fiLlin oF riDin e rEverse bUngEe-cLark qUay..i caN't aCtUalLy reMember hOw maNy tYmes i rOde iT b4 wEn i wAs wOrkin aT bUngy bAr..i caN't wAet tO gEt baCk tO wOrk..)

iTz 3a.m!!

iTz 3am & i'M nOt sLipy..hOw caN i sLip welL nOein daT he iS nOt @ hUm rytE noW..hE iS waTchin sOcCer @ e cOffEeshOp wiF hiS frEns..dRinkiN i gUez..s uSual..i'm sOo maD @ hIm 4 bEin unaTtentiVe,eSp @ a tYme lYke tiZ..bUt stilL,iT is hIm dat i mIz & tYnk abOut..iT haS olWis bIn & oLwiS wiLl b..bOo..wEn iS tIz gOna enD..??

utTer diSsapPointmEnt

i’M fiLlin dOwn cast tOdae..i aM sOo disappointed in bOo..maEb bcOz i xpEct tOo mUch frUm hiM n eVentUalLy iT dId’nt gO s i expected..hOnesTly,i riLy dUn tYnk i’M asKin fOr mUch bUt hE iS tOo iNfLuence wif hiS mates..hE iS spEndin moZ oF hiS tymE oUtside wiF frenS..lOng hours of hanGin arnd dUin nOtynk..sOo waT is e pUrpOse..??wHer iS hE wEn i niD hIm..??wHr r the promises daT yOu made to mE??aLl a bUnch oF lies!!inSTeAD oF beIn wif mE wEn i niD yOu e mOz,u rather accompany uR frEn..dU uR fRens mEan more dEn mE??waT m i 2 u??waT dU u take mE fOr??y mUz i unDersTand yOu whReLse u dUn spaRe a thought fOr mE & mA preciOus..bOo..u r nOt bEin faIr tO me!!hOw mUch lOnger caN i tOleratE aL tiZ??is tiZ evEn dUin mE anY gUd??

u haF hUrt mE sOo tYme tO tyMe again..

haPy mE..

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haLo frEns & fOes!!sOrRy bErrY straWbeRry fOr thE laTe inpUt oN bLog tOdae..sIs waS usIn thE laPtop eaRlier..n lYke hEy..anI1 oF u reaLise daT inteRnet haS bIn laCkin tIz fEw daeS.. aNnoyed cEhy!!ya..lYke reaL bad g2..wEll,i haD lUnch @ buRger kIng..wiF mUm..i haD e tEndergRilL meaL..pReviOusly iT was knOwn s thE chiCken wHopper..dUno y deY changeD e namE..& dEr waS a pEriod oF timE daT deY tOok iT oUt frUm thE mEnu..mIz iT sOo..hahaXx!!

bOo haS bin sTayin @ hUm tIz paZ 2-3 daEs..i'M fIllin sOo haPy!!bUt i noe iT wOn't laZ lOng..wEn hiS bIke iS oUt oF thE wOrksHop,hE wIlL B Bz wIf hiS freNs..Lyke uSually..hOw i wiSh wE caN b lYke hOw wE usEd to bE..wEn i'M owIs wiF hiM rOund e cLock..whreva hE is,dEr i aM..wHreva i aM,deR hE waS..wE r lYke insEparataBle!!wE haD quaRrels bUt iT nVr laZ..pPl enVy thE bOnd wE haF..lYke rIly..rIly..nOw wE cAn't reGurlarly mIt to sUm reaSons daT i caN't staTe heRe..i'm jUz waEtin tIlL everytInk wiLl b baCk tO the waE iT waS..i rIly hOpe sOon enUgh cOz iM mizIn bOo lYke dEadly!!

bOo i mEan wAt i saE iN the pIc abOve..i'M haPy tO b aBle tO shaRe ma lYke wIf yOu..hOpe yOu r haPy wIf mY prEsence in yOur liFe tOo..love yOu mUch maNy pLentY mOre!!

wE taLk..

yey yEy!!tOmorRow iS mOndae..i'M sOo gLad daT e weEkenDs r eNdin..hEe..wElL,2daE mE & bOo haD a lOng cHat..wAa..fIlL sOo haPy ceHy..dA amE g2 kaN taK riLy cOmmUnicatE..n dEr waS ceRtaen tInks daT hE tOld mE daT lYke i oBviOusly dUno..bUt i'M haPy daT hE spOke uP..iT tOok hIm qUite sUmtimE b4 lEtTin iT oUt..hE waS afRaid daT i wIl scOld hIm..wElL,hE diD notYnk tO hUrt mE peRsaE..sOo i dId'nt lOse ma tOp..
i waS jUz sUrprisEd wEn hE iniTiaLly tOld me..i sTiL loVe yOu bOo!!lOts,pLeNty & maNy maNy...



p.S i sOo fiLl lYke eaTin bUrger kIng..yUm yUmmy!!

iTz sUndae..

u fOes nOe hOw i hatE wEekends..timE paZ sOo sLow sehy...nOw onLi lyKe 4 cEhy..yEz bOo raNg mE wEn he rEach hUm..aRg..@ abOut 12:05am..i waEted lYke a fEw hOurs 4 hiS kOl bUt nOt evEn a 5 minUtes hE sPare 4 mE..sOo piZ oFf sak!!hE saE hE waS diZzy..& hE jUz haNg uP thE fOn lyke heLo??m i mUte..??eRghh!!hE iS stIl aSlip rytE nOw lOrr..hOw i wiSh i caN slAP hIs faCe sOo daT hE wilL waKe uP & reaLise waT a diCk hE haF tUrn oUt to be..i'm sOo disSAppOinted iN yOu bOo!!

hMm..iTz raInin hEavily ceHy..sTil mizIn bOo lYke crazY..

sHoutOut tO bOo!!

(sHoutoUt tO boO!!)

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hey der..tOdae raJin cehY..i chaNged ma laYout fOr maspacE..dA bOred sangaT @ hUm laRr..bOo is oUt..dUno nOw he aT whR..taDy kaTa naK tmaN khaI g penisUlar..kaTa jE nak kIp mE updatEd..smpI laR skRg..tk dGr ciTe pOn..bOred sak!!dUin s hE pleaSed!!lYke aL the tYme r!!i dUno hOw to pUt it tO him anImOre..nOt s iF hE liSten..waSte of tiMe taLkin tO him..aM i lYke tO lEnient tO him??maRa naNti maJok..haEz..waT m i sUppoz to dU cehy..??oH ya!!4geT to teLl u maTes oUt der..i oReady cUt ma haIr shOrt..haHX!!hMm..iTz oN thE 7 oF tiZ mOnth!!hehee..oF cOZ laR ingt..iTz on mA anniVersary daTe..heHee..jUz cOincideNtly lOrr..

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daMn rYte iT is!!tO freNs & fOes oUt dEr,haF a plEasant wEeekeNd!!

wEekenDs!!eErghh..

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hey der..i noe lyKe i blOg late toDae fOr i dIdn't haF qUIte thE mOod tO siT in frOnt of thE cOmputEr..wAa..riLy lYke hOt cehy todaE..y nO wind r??tODaE,i haf siS 4 cOmpany...yUp,she waS lazy to gO to skUl..well,she was'nT fiLlin weLl aniwaE..sOo lUcky me lOrr..laRr..i dreaD weEkends sEhy whIle mY siS is jUmpin oF joy..wahaha!!i miz bOo xtreMely on weEkends foR tyme paZ slOwer..bOo iS out wiF frenS..nOt angry laRr..yeZ he saT at hUm sOo i'M okae lOrr..jUz hopE dat hE dun dRink s oFten..hEhee..hMm..e laZ tYme i saw hiM waS wen he caMe tO ma hoUse..waA..amE cEhy..bOo,i miZ u laRr..hMm..wEl lYke usUally,i wIlL b waEtin 4 bOo's kOl to enSure daT he iS baCk safe & sOund..4 noW,i'M waTchin sUrviVor..i loVe gUd variEty shOw..

bOo oUt der:taKe caRe oF uRseLf n dU tynK oF me lyke i'M owiS tYnkin oF yOu..Lotz Of Love,sOflan

yOharr..

yOharr!!i've bIn blOggin lYke eveYdae..sOo frEe..haha!!lUcky me lOrr..pPl bZ wOrkin,sKulin bUt herE i aM..laZyin Lyke oInk oInk..heHeee..!!bIn siTtin & sLippin @ hUm...haF grOwn sOo FAT!! lYke rIly lOrr..nVm..tHOught of taKin yoGa claSses..hMm..weL,bOo haS bin tElin me daT he tIred lOrr..not eVen a mIn on e fon..eRghH!!maNe laRr tak pnaT..hari2 kUa..alek paGy kUa maLam..kLao bwaK aLek rezeki taK pe..sOo angry sEhy..wEn e heLl is hE gona tYnk lYke an aDult!!oWis tynkin of fReedom,hIs freNs n "hE,hImself & hE"..wEl,waT cAn i saE??wEl,iTz owIs mE mizIn him,lOokin 4 hIm..sOo uNfair lOrr!!bOo-hOO..i stIL miz & lUv bOo lOtz!!

wEll,enUgh bOut hiM oreaDy!!

bTw,i'M sOo haPy toDae @ e faCt daT ma pRecious iS dUin guD anD i haVe bOught heR a fEw wearS..i caN't waEt to tEl u hOw mUch i lOve yOu!!wEl,iF bOo haF biN a liTtle aTtentive,maEb pRecIous wLd haF kNown him bEta!!wEl bOo,iF yOu care 4 anY of uS,u shud nOe wat to dU..
i'M sOo diSSappOinted in yOu..

aiYohaa..

aiyOhaa!!bOo weN out yez at 9pm & oni reaCh hUmiez @ 8 plus in thE moRnin..sOo piz oFf..nVr raNg mE up to tEll daT he wiL bAck lyKe sUper dUper latE..maKe me waEt fOr hiM the wHole nYte..sOo tired saK..nOw,he sEems to bE sLeepin..i tYnk lOrr..wAs angrY laRr wif hIm bUt den he rang mE wen he reaCh hUm,aPologized and talk to mE foR a peRiOd of time sOo i gOt cOoled dwN bY den..haEz..bIn sLeepiN lYke a lOg 2dae..hEhheeee..bTw i can't waEt to sEe ma bOo..mIzin hIm lOtz!!lYke rEally..

loTz pLenTy to telL..

hey!!fiRst of aL..2daE is muM's & daD's weDding aNniversaRy..sO muM & dad oUt der..haPy anniverSary to yOu botH!!twO of mA x colLeaguEs wAs here eArlier so i wasN't dat bored..sOo much food..
mUm cooked laKsa and waNton..anD soo maNy more spreadS..yUm yUm..
noW,i fIlL blOated!!alhamdulLilah!!hEehheee..
Ya,bOo woke up lyKe super eaRly..he ranG me wEn i wAs aSlip at 10 plUs in the mOrnin..nOw he iS at hUm,fRustrated at his sItuation..
yEz,he wEn to visiT a fweN @ chAngi hOspitaL..aNd on thE waE der,
he haD acCident..not a big oNe larr cOz i haF olwiS biN prayin 4 hiS safEty..hehEe..cUte kan..i Noe..haHaX..a caR in fRont of him reverse aL of a sUdden on a 1 diRection roAd and bang hiS head feRrin..aNd the dRiver iS nOt keEn on paYing the fUlL amOunt oF damaGe..hE sae daT he iS onLi wIlLin to fOrge oUt $100!!waT a miSer!!iTz like toTally hiS fault & stIl waNna bargaiN..hE iS daMn luCky lOrr daT i'M not deR cOz eveRy1 noEs dat i'M mUch fiercEr den ma bOo hiMseLf..pOor bOo..hOw i wIsh i caN heLp him rYte now..hE mUz b feeLin helPlez..waNted to gO to the Police..bUt bcOz of a $260 plUs damaGe,y waSte money oN lawyer feEs..haEz..i oSo dUn wan tO caLl bOo jUz yet..u nOe laRr..hE isN't "fRiendlY" wEn he iS trOubled,uPset eTc..
haEz dEar,i mIz you sOo mUch laRr..hMm..

sHoutOut 4 mA bOo oUt der..
>>i lOve yOu faR tOo mUch daT wOrds caN neva xPrez mA feElinS anD daT no maThs in the wOrld caN calcUlate how mUch i lOve yOu!!<<
(Eeee..mUshy sak..hee..)

sOo faR sOo gUd..

hey der!!gUd evenIn' feLlow maTes..i'm feeLin haPy!!haHax!!i lovE weEkdaes!!..baSicaLly bCoz timE seEm to paZ faSter loRr..todaE i cleanEd the enTire house,haD my aftRnUn bathE and watch mA malay dRama,hIkmah 2,jUz in tiMe..iT was teLecast in sUria beFore bUt i cudN't catCh iT for i was bZ workin @ daT point oF time..sOo now daT i am sittiN @ hUm,i maKe usE of the spaRe time..heHee..bOo has bIn gUd sOo far soO i'M kinda haPy l orr..nO streZ..bUt i riLy miZ hIm lorr..wiSh he wAs herE by masidE sOo i wudn't mIz him sOo much..hahx!!

tO ma' bOo ouT der..
i hearT u foR every sMall thIng daT u dU for me!!
waTeva u r dUin ryTe now,i waN you to nOE dat i love you sOo mUch anD dat i'M olwis tinkIn of yOu!!
>>tO love & to caRe,i pRomiz to bE der!!<<

hApy me..

4 me..saTurdaes n sUndaEs r sUch a boRe..foR i dun go ouT and deR r no inteRestin progrMmes on tv..sOo usUally i' m sUrfin the nEt anD rRrR...baSicaLly notHink eLse loRr..kEsian kan??dEn bOo is Olwis wIf his freNs..he raNg me up at 7 in e mOrnin toDae and we talk til 12 plUS..fiLs gUd 4 wE haven't cHat for lyKe i duno how lOng sO,heHhHHeeeEee...yUp,i'm hapy!!grInnin fRum ear to Ear ryTe now..he iS goin oUt aniwae..s xPected..oSO dun wan to saE anytynk loRr...i tYnk he is oLd enugH to tyNk of waT he waNs out oF lYfe soooOOo...no cOmment..(ryTE now laRr)wEl,hoPefully he wOn't piZ me off agaiN todaE..

tO him ouT der..>>i miz yOu lotz!!<<

iTchy haNds of miNe..

i'M such a losEr!!haeZ..mY hp vibRated and i waS soo eaGer to pick iT up noEin it was a privaTe kol..oNli he uses private..laY low??ya ryte!!hahaHa..weL.itz his haBit to ring me Up onLi after 2 daeS..weL,honEstly,i feEl beta now afTer hearin hiS voice n nOein dat he is dUin fine..hMm..
now cN eat n slIp wiF pEace but i am stIl angrY wiF him foR bein seLf-cenTred n eGoistic..
y dOes satUrdae fiLs sooOoo boRin??no goOd tV proGrmmEs..notyNk tO du..arGhhh..

>>cOuntdown to 30tH June..heheHEhHhheee...<<

laYin lOw..

heY der..gUd evenin'..i'm not fiLin gud..bIn tyNkin alot lately..bin takin frens's and family member's advises into conSideration..jUz laz two daes,he waS bein swit and aL but guez wat??he wen MIA yet again after i nagged bOut his daily oUtin wif his frens..itZ not that i'm bein unreasoNable..i dU let him go out @ relevant timeS fOr i noe sittiN at hum is sUch a bore at timeS but gOin out wif no mUch purpose eVerydae??and pUttin his freNs above his faM n me juz dissAppoint me much..haEz..not bin kOlin me s if i waS the one in faUlt..kolIn me onLi wen he fiLs lyKe it??waT does he take me fOr??how m i suPpoz to toleRate dat??y shUd i tolerate dat aNiwae??i've bin patienT 4 sUmtime and i'M not taKin it lYin dwn..i pLan to lay lOw frum him for noW..i'm not goNa ans hiS kols..leT him feeL how izIt lyke..bUt i dun tyNk he is gona koL 4 now for itZ the weeKend..i noE him to wEl..he mUz be enjoyin hImself ryte now..weL,al the bez to hiM..maE he find happInez in waTeva he is dUin..aL i noe is daT sUm1 der(ma prEcious) nid ma aTtention n love morE den hiM..so i sHud put aL ma heart n soul to "ma pRecious"..ensure daT "ma precioUs" gEts the love,caRe n cOncern dat sHe nids..yUp..itz a she!!
weL datz aL for now..to aL of you ouT der..
>>enJoy the rez of youR evenin..take caRe.. =)

uPdates..

wAs damn tired 4 haven't slept weL yez..guEz wat??he popped bY yez!!yUp..uPon ma request though..bUt he is wiLlin okae!!heHee..i onLi had to asked him onE time anD he saE okae!!mcm da lamE g2 tak nmpk diekan..hapy lar..wel,he diDn't stay long but we had sOo many catchin up..i tink..heHee..iT owis happeN tiz wae!!evrytIme i wana gIf up,sumtinK gud wiL make me change mY mind soo let sae..i'M back to square one..you can't blame me ppl..matteRs of heart is haRd to explain..heheE..weL,he was rather nice til now..leT juz see how long thuz it laz tiz time roUnd..hMm..btw "ma precious" is duin great!!AllhaMdulLilah!
tODae i woke up due to boo'S kol at about 11.40am..den i ate bfaz and guez wat??i duno wat happen to me overnIght bUt i cleaned the entire house!!hahax..rajin kan..ikot mood..weL,so the house is clean ryte now!!oh hey!!mUm's back!!mUz b damn hapy dat the hoUse is clean..hahaa!!lucky hEr..
4 now,i'm waiTin 4 ma boo's kol..
weL to the reZ of u al oUt der..
haF a pleasanT evenin!!

taKin onE sTep @ a tiMe..

wHy doesn't the tEars dry up no mattEr how mucH i haF shed deM??y dU i kip cryiN even after persUadin dat everYthink wiL stil go weL without hiM..maEb even betA..y dU i kip tynkin of hIm even after wat he haF donE to me which is unpardoNable..y dU i stil hope daT he wiL realise one dae n changed..waT is wrong wiF me??y doEs it stil hurt soo much??y isn't the pain gOin aWae??no maTter how mUch i try,it wOn't stop hurtin..i haTe maselF for landin myself in tiZ state..y can't i hate him after al daT haf happEn??y do i sTil care??y du i stiL fil helpleZ @ the sight of him??y du i stil believe him wen he saE he iS goin to change??y am i soo indecisive??i riLy wanna move on bUt i duno waT is stopping me..i gotta b strong foR "the precious one"..



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liStleZ..

hMm..hoW dU i makE mY time 2dAe??i'M siCk of staYin @ hUm..sOo borEd..bUT wat cn i dU??i haF to sTay @ huM to sUm reasOns daT i caN't liSt doWn..eRrghh..n a ceRtaen sUmone haF makE my timE worst..he maKe timE for otHa ppL daT he sUmhow forGot ma pResence.. haEz..waT can i saE..it wAs stUpid n naiVe oF me on mA part..sOo i haF masElf to blamE..weL,i onLi hoPE daT i wiL haF light aGain in mA lifE..a diRection whiCh i caN follow dat wiL lead to free of mIsery..hahaX..daT onlI happen in fairytaLes ryte sOO i can kiP on dreamIng..hEhee..weL,wE haF to maKe gUd use of oUr time s timE is preCious..hMm..i tyNk i'm gona Let him go noW..suM tinKs we jUz nid to dU 4 ouR own benefit..weL,to u whReva u r oUt der,walK n plZ r..dUn look back 4 i'm noT der 4 u to miStreat anImore..

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heLo deR mA feLlow maTes..daT abOve iS mY aDd foR spacE-msN sO u caN cheQ iT ouT..haF a niCe dae!!
p.S & lUpiez,kiP oN smiLin tO kIp thE daE gOin..

wHy??

i waeTed the whoLE daE paTientlY juz to hEar hiS voIce..bUt y m i noT thE firSt persOn he tYnk oF weN hE wakEs up??y iS it dat i oWis haF to dU hiS bidDin..iT is sOo unFair..sOo mUch i haF sacrIfice 4 hiM..i dUn expeCt anytYnk in reTurn buT i deServe sUm reSpect..y cN't he sEe dat hE is hUrtin mE baD..i tRy harD 2 pleAse hiM..i try 2 unDerstanD hiM ..bUt he sTil hUrt mE frUm tymE tO tiMe aGain..hE caN nvR paE thE tearS awAe..e hUrt..aL daT hE haF infLicteD oN me..

i haTe hIm foR dat!!

gRapes...

sUddenly i haF the urgE to eat grapEs..hmM..yuMmy yummY..cM da laMe g2 kan taK mkN graPe..hahaX..i mIz ma bOo buT he iS stiL in bed..ya..i nOe ryte??lOok at the tiMe oready..hE slIPs like a lOg..gOt used to iT oreadY..hehEe..in 4 morE daeS tymE..wE r celebratiN our 1 yeAR 2mNths annIversarY..tIme siM to paZ soO faz..i mEt ma bOo @ssdC..at dat TyME..bOth of uS werE takIn ciRcuit reviSion..sAme sLot sumoRe..i wAs prepARIn masElf 4 my pRac 5 whiLe
hE waS prepaRin 4 hIs tP..we haF gonE throUgh soO manY tYnks togetHer..weL,bOth oF us r pLannin 2 gT marrIed..hMm..hIs sinCerity aNd swItneZ haF mOved me..i Love yoU dear!!

gOod mOrniN' . .

mRng lUpiez!!aiN't i eaRly toDae..weL,am miZin ma deaR lotZ henCe herE i aM..hEhee..dEar,whReva u r rYte noW,waTeva u R dUin,jUz wannA leT u nOe,daT i lUp u Lotz!!m tYnkin oF yOu oLwis!!maY wE b haPy togeTher s oLwis..muaXy mUaxy!!

waT a hot HOT daE..

hEy fRens!!it haS bin a hUmid weaTher 4 thE paZ few wEeks,dUn u agrEe??herE i aM siTtin iN frOnt oF ma laPtop in sWeat..hEhee..gonA haF to caTch a baTh laTer on..poztIn ma pIc here nOw dat i haF notink beTa 2 du..m mIzin ma dear lOtz..wOnderin waT iS he duiN rYte now..hMm..muZ b buSy riDin wiF hIs frens..wEl,i wiL b waetiN for u lOve..

sOoOoo borEd...

hey der!!itz ma 1st blog..am soo bored @ hum..not werkin or skulin..duno wat lyfe has install 4 me..cn't waet to get my hands on ma first bike..itz bin sumtime since i paz my tp..thght of hookin maself up wif ma ideal bike,TZM..wakaka..i noe it is not a gurl's ride but i'm keen on ownin one..hehee..wat to do..i love speed!!wee..heee......